I don’t have words of wisdom this week. Just an open & honest admission that as much as I like to think I’ve got it together, I don’t always. It’s been an emotional couple weeks. There has been some really exciting thing happening, and some really kinda scary thing happening. With that, comes quite a bit of anxiety because, depending on the outcome of the next couple days, a large portion of my life could change drastically. And I am struggling. I’m finding myself turning to food as a distraction or a comfort.
Things in our lives are currently really awesome. But, an opportunity came up & I put my name in the mix. If I get the opportunity, it’s possible our life could be even better. But it could also make our life worse. It’s unknown. I should be excited. Most of the people I’ve told are excited on my behalf. But I’m a nervous wreck & I’m eating my feelings. I’ve mostly kept up with my workouts, but it’s not enough.
So why share this? Well, as much as I like to believe that I’ve got my shit together, some days I don’t. Some days it’s a struggle. And
some most days I don’t feel like I have all the answers. Admitting you’ve got a problem is the first step to recovery, right? I don’t always deal with stress in the healthiest of ways. Eating because you’re stressed is certainly a very common (but still unhealthy) way of dealing with it. So, from that perspective, my current coping mechanism is boring & common. It’s an improvement (primarily because I’m not spreading my anxiety around), but I still have room for improvement.
It’s something to strive toward. And today is a new day. This week is a new week.
Time to forgive myself and start moving in the direction I want to go again…
Wishing you an All+SUM LIFE,